Direction

I find this blog hard to define, and I think that's why my posts have become so few and far between.  I struggle with how to fill the space.  

Undoubtedly, it started as an outlet for me to pour out my heart as we struggled with starting a family.  Then, it became a place to share our journey through infertility, posting prayer requests and rejoicing in the ways God was answering and moving in our lives.  It was at that time that this blog also became a ministry to me....through all of you.  That was the biggest blessing at that time in our lives.  God used all of your love, encouragement and prayers--many times from total strangers--to lift us up and minister to our aching hearts.  I look back on those days with such gratitute. 

Then, we found out I was pregnant, and I started to use the blog to document all the milestones and our pregnancy journey.   I'm so glad I faithfully recorded those nine months, because I am working on making all of those posts--from infertility to pregnancy--into a book for Blake that will be separate from the one I'll make him from his first year of life.  After all, this is his story. 

Once Blake was born, I started losing my focus on how to continue this blog.  As I shared here, I decided to split my blogging life into two, and Love and a Blog was born.  I found myself wanting to document our family memories in the same outlet as before, but also feeling newly aware and protective of my son's privacy.  Admittedly, I haven't exactly excelled at keeping either blog current or relevant. 

And so now here I am.  Trying to figure out exactly what this blog is, and how I'll keep it going.  On the one hand, our infertility story isn't over yet.  In fact, I just got off the phone with our fertility clinic about two minutes ago.  I'll have news that I'll be sharing very soon on that front.  So there will definitely be more posts as we continue to navigate those waters.  On the other hand, though, infertility certainly doesn't define me, and it also not the only way we have continually seen the provision and love of the Father in our lives.  I've realized I do a very poor job of documenting those blessings.  So there's a lot of room to grow there, too.

But in addition to all that, I'm also a daughter, a wife, a mother, a home-maker, a wannabe seamstress, a (very) amateur photographer, a DIY junkie, a complete and total goofball, a baker, a teacher, a friend, and a million other things at various times of the day.  So you know what?  I'm just going to do life.  Right here, in my own little corner of the internet.  This blog is a reflection of the day to day, and so I'm just going to roll with it.  Some days I may write about big stuff, and some days notsomuch.  I'm not going to worry about the direction, instead, I'm just going to follow the path that God has laid out for our little family's feet to travel. 

So what is this blog?  It's life, and it's all about the blessings.  I hope you'll come along for the ride.